Proof:Good People Still Exist

An Angel Among Us-Maura DeSouza

Maura went to heaven this morning. Sometime after 10am. Though I was not able to keep in touch throughout the years, I knew Maura in high school. We did a few plays together and she had an amazing voice!

I am without words. Being human, there are so many unanswered questions. Being a believer, there's so much more than this life.

update!

so...it's been over a month since i've updated.
a)because acting takes up a LOT of time!
b)i don't have many people who keep up with this
c)sometimes i just don't have the words to say

things lately have been...well...weird.

i had to quit my job. i wanted to. i was sick of the people, sick of not being heard after almost 2 years of employment, sick of being paid CRAP! i really loved the kids. that's why i took the job in the first place. i love those babies with my whole heart. i hope they never forget that.

so i've done a 180. I'm in sales and loving it so far! i still spend as much time with kids as i can, but i'm getting career-minded and this position is helping me make that decision. i feel like i would like to get involved with HR or something similar, but i'm not about to make any sudden judgements just yet. i love kids. i never stop learning from them. but maybe this is God telling me to focus and do what He wants me to do instead of just going to work to get a paycheck. (which is what the old job turned into.) we'll see...i certainly didn't go searching for this job!

theater:charlie brown has 2 more weekends (off this weekend for the strawberry festival!!! COME OUT!) we close on the 31st. :( i really expected a larger house for a great family show, but whatever... next is OZ!!! i got THE CUTEST shirt from target (i like to pronounce it as though i am french) last night!!! i'm glinda...the good! :) yay!!! it's like a vacation. i know most of my lines already and i get to be motherly. done!

shaba:my cat needs his own blog! people ask how he is before they ask how i am! most don't even get THAT far! i was cleaning a few weeks back with the screen door open and somehow, we got fleas! :( ooooh i was/am ticked!!! we thought it was allergies at first, because Shab has such loooong fur, and the vet didn't see anything. but then i saw one on the carpet and FLIPPED! so i've got powders and sprays and collars trying to kill every last pest! UH! ridiculous!

swine flu:IT'S NOT REAL!!! barbra walters was sick of talking about the crappy economy and created this conspiracy alongside ted koppel, katie couric, and george lopez. (seriously...SOMEONE has a sense of humor!) so no, not all texans have it, my northern friends. i have seen a few people wearing masks, there's a shortage of germ-x and purrel, and UIL shut down for a few weeks. haha! that's all i'm gonna say...

i got a new bed on monday!!! i lost my bed, and everything else, to the hurricane, so i got a luxury inflatable-top mattress for a while. well, shaba has back claws. enough said. a couple in JV was gracious enough to give me a queen size mattress and box spring for free! i was literally in tears on the way home! i had been on the floor for months! i slept till 1pm on tuesday! :) HUGE deal!

so i was wondering today, which is often a dangerous task for minds as large and intricate as mine, (okay, kidding!) and i've come to the realization that everything has worked out for the best since everything happened last month. (i won't get into the details)

since everything changed, i've been so much happier with life! i've got a fun and extremely financially rewarding job with potential to grow without limits, i've gotten to spend some time with Shaba and pamper him, i've had time to enjoy being with the people i love most, and i'm finding myself again. it's a good feeling. :)

on the down side, there are about 50 amazing little people i miss terribly. but i'm getting back in touch with most of them and they know i love them.

so...i'm paying the bills and then some. thank GOD!

there's something else that's been grating on my mind though...and that is...how can someone have hundreds of myspace and facebook 'friends,' all who you know on a personal level, but you don't speak or spend time together catching up on things? has our society become THAT modernized that we rely on twitter and iphones? really? because if so, i want out!

contention 1. i have my own life. i am not a celebrity-i would not appreciate that lifestyle. so...you don't need to know that i'm buying shampoo, cutting my cats' nails, then going to eat with so-and-so at such-and-such place and then going to bed at 3am. seriously!

contention 2. you can NOT sense sarcasm in a text/email/tweet/twit WHATEVER! enough said.

contention 3. i am SICK AND TIRED of people asking private questions or making comments on walls/profiles/etc. i have a voice and it works quite well. pick up a phone, moron.

so, having said that...i will continue to have a myspace and facebook to keep in touch with the 5 people who actually use it to keep in touch. i will not do that twitter crap or text you all day 'bc ur brd @ wkr!' not happening.

something caught my eye tonight that lifted my spirits. a girl i went to high school with has been battling tumors and cancer. SHSU gave her a private graduation in her hospital room and the video is on youtube. it was the most fantastic thing i've ever seen-especially on the internet. i guess there are a few good people still left in this world. God bless SHSU, God bless Maura and her family. My heart is with you all.

so...on this note? what more can YOU do to help someone today?