365x2=a LOT of stress, fun, and frustration....but mostly fun.

So...today I got to know someone's true character-and I did not like it. This was to be expected based on this person's in-and-out 'friendship' style, of course, however I try to give people the benefit of the doubt. I won't mention anything further, as that would put me close to the moral level that they themself reached. I WILL remind you...think before you speak and be true to your friends. Karma is a...well, you know...and it's already proved true in this case. (Not that I wish it upon them...)

James and I have been together 2 years today. I don't really see it as anything big. I guess that's due to the fact that I already knew-unless tragedy occured-we'd make it. So, the day is here. We at Wendy's, both felt very sick (stomach bug...WATCHOUT!) and watch American Idol with his mom (not necessarily by choice, mind you...) But it's okay. Our first Broadway show is coming up on the 7th!!! Legally Blonde:The Musical! Can't wait! Just wish I could have seen Laura Bell in the original...but then again, I'd give so much to see Kristin and Idena in Wicked! Oh well...I'll keep an open mind!

Something else on my plate is my annual trip to Austin to see Ludo and night-after show in Houston! It's something I've been doing with friends for quite a while now and we've only had one bad experience, but it turned out all okay in the end! (Well, I think so, at least!) I'm curious to hear Marshall's replacement and to catch up. These boys are just...man...no words... GO SEE THEM! (please?!) :D That's in March. Then, the NEXT weekend, it's back to Austin for Spamalot! and to see Ha Ha Tonka and maybe Cruiserweight at SXSW!

These so much to do this spring! Everyone's always allowed in on the fun!-AS LONG AS YOU HELP WITH THE EXPENSES!!!

My class is going on a field trip to H.E.B. on friday. Joy. "...and here is the milk..." :(

My favorite boy's birthday was today...BIG 5! And he told his mom, "When I grow up, I want a girlfriend just like Ms. Jennifer!" :) I love it! So cute!

I am moving to Vermont.

Not really.

Sorry, my fellow Vermont-ians? Vermont-ans? Hm.....

Duck, duck.......
JENN!

How many times...

...Do you let someone hurt you before you let them go? I realized today that there are so many people in my life who seem to hurt me over and over and over again. But, I'm the fool who lets them. When do you draw the line? When do you change your number and move away and start all over alone? I thought I had done all of that a few times now, but I was an idiot and listened to people who only come around when they want something, so now things are back to their usual suck-ish ways. My lease is up in a month or so and I want to move, only I can't find cheap rent anywhere but here. I want to move out of state to somewhere with mild weather. Somewhere big enough that no one's in your business, but small enough that someone will stop and help if you get a flat. Somewhere no one knows me. Somewhere far, far away.

If I let someone have my trust, it's saying something. I'm very hesitant to trust anyone, really. But, when I do let go, I give my all. I guess this is why some people take and take and take and never realize what a selfish and hurtful person they've become-at least around me. Then, if I dare speak up, I'm made out to be the bad guy. Typical. I just don't know when to stop letting everything be 'okay.'

Oh and the one thing I CANNOT stand-cussing. You cuss me out, you might as well forget I ever existed. I can't take that crap.

I'm not looking for advice, because no one knows what's going on-again, because I don't have anyone I can trust. So, read and think 'Is it me?' Yes, probably.

I have no constant.

Surprises, Waffles, Messy Apt., Blockbuster, Crabs

Surprises- I got a wonderful surprise visit from an old student of mine yesterday! It TOTALLY made my day! That little girl is sweet as can be, silly as can be, and already loosing TEETH! Time flies... I wish I could have spent alllll day with her! She saved me so many times. Her spirit is so loving, giving, and foriving. She's one of the reasons I think I am where I am today. LOVE YOU, SILLY GIRL! :)

Waffles-It's 8:30. Time for breakfast! But see, I'm in a pickle. I have my favorite waffles in the freezer, but off-brand syrup. I'm picky-so I only eat Mrs. Butterworth's Extra Butter Syrup. (I know, it's terrible for you, but it's my secret vice.) I think I'll give the cheap stuff a try. If all else fails, I still have peanutbutter crackers...

Messy Apt.-My apartment is ridiculous. Clothes and boxes everywhere. I'm sure that I'm subconciously afraid to make this place home again. Every time I hang something or move furniture, all I can think is 'oh...can i get this out fast if another storm comes?' I know we're still (ideally) months away from hurricane season, but the thought still crosses my mind. Especially when we put my $300 Ikea entertainment center together. It's huge and it took us 3 hours to complete! Then again, when James' dad dropped the box and chipped one of the shelves, I lost 4% of my love for it. But whatever. Things are things. So today I guess I'll clean...but then go find some way to reward myself. I'll REALLY deserve it this time!

Blockbuster-I seriously wonder how this place even exists! Sure, the 3/$20 and $4/20 deals are great, but not when there's nothing good. Why pay $4.99 or whatever it is now to rent a movie you'll watch once when you can go to Redbox and get the same movie for $1 a night? And with Redbox, you can return them to any location! (Idk about B.B.) And the service...terrible. And the location by the mall smells like mold. We scored Medea Goes To Jail ($7.99-haven't seen it before-hope it's good!), From Justin To Kelly ($1.99-yes, the american idol kids-my guilty pleasure) and The Beverly Hillbillies ($1.99-seen it a million times-loved it as a kid). This was so we would spend a 2 year old gift card. It was either that or buy snacks, which would amount to maybe 2 candy bars. That said, GO TO REDBOX!

CRABS-I like weird things, as everyone knows. I've been wanting a 'critter' lately. Maybe a bird, hamster-something funny looking for sure. Well, after going to the Circuit City store closing sale (over-rated!), I insisted on going to Earthbound-the crazy african-esque store that smells funny. The store itself actually freaks me out. It's like the one on The Hot Chick. So I picked up 2 hermit crabs-one in a black shell with colorful flowers, and the other in a giraffe shell. Shaba is HILARIOUS with them! They're named Romy and Michele, respectively. I'll have to post a video of all the kids together! HAA!

Have a greaaaaaaaat weekend b/c I'm sure I won't! :(
jennnnnnnnn

OH! And one more thing.......

Phobia, Shmobia

I haven't written in a few days, mostly because I have nothing to say, and partly because I have TOO much to say.

So, I will say this-I HATE SNAKES!!! They're disgusting, sinful, filthy creatures-and you will NEVER change my mind!

I could never get a tattoo. I'm terrible with pain. Pain intollerant, some may say...

I don't like roller coasters. I've ridden 2.

I love American Idol, Top Model, Hell's Kitchen...that's about it as far as reality goes!

I don't have cable. Or a land-line.

I'm afraid of jellyfish. And the 'cure.'

I'm out of words...so I'm boring tonight...

2 Words: culture shock.

While swimming at the resort, something happened that REALLY bothered me.



James and I were outside in the spa (hot tub) but decided to go in since hot water isn't a good idea for prolonged periods of time. There were probably about 40 other people in the pool-mostly in the shallow end-so James and I stayed in the deep end and out of everyone's way. We were watching a nice black family playing and listening to their mom get onto them. (So funny!) Then we watched a large asian family of 5-6 women and just as many kids. You could tell that it was their first time at the resort and James assumed that the women borrowed their children's swimsuits. (For obvious reasons...ew.) ..And I think he was right! One boy, maybe 7 or 8 years old, stood up with a red innertube around him and he was stark nekkid! I was immediatly horrified and ready to leave. Three tours came into the pool while this kid was in the buff, yet nothing was said! It's clearly against the rules! You're really not even supposed to jump! One woman on a tour just stared. One maintanance guy laughed. I was without words!

the luckiest unlucky day of my life!

Yesterday had potential to be a terrible day-and most of it was. BUT, after James got home from Whataburger, we checked the mail and I jokingly said, "Man, that'd be sweet if I had a free bridal magazine or a government check, or like free samples of something...or whatever." I opened the box to find loads of sales paper, (I hadn't checked my mail in 2 weeks! WHOOPS!) 2 free bridal magazines, a $100 gift card to Helzburg, (where my pink Bulova watch resides...) AND a government check! :) It was amazing. Not to mention seeing Steph and Jen and finally finding 'Mrs. Nelson Is Missing!' I can't wait to tell the kidd-os!

This morning I got a 2 week starter kit of 'good skin.' I've only tried the lotion so far, but I love it! It makes me feel so much better and it leaves the moisture in my skin without taking the deweyness out. Amazing! And I looked it up-It's only $15 or so at Kohls! They have stuff for every skin type you could imagine-EVER red/irratated and aging! You should check it out! :)

So I'm starting to feel some better in general. I tried to do a little painting earlier and I may try some scrapbooking soon. I just kinda lost all motivation and it's taking a while to get it back. Thank GOD I'll have the weekend to relax!

So now I'm going to keep it low key and sort through some hurricane stuff. (I procrastinate. I'm almost to the point where I'm ready to throw it all away.

Peave love and crabs,
J